For Anne...

Two minds together as one.
From the beginning of day
Until the night is done.
Knowing the other like oneself,
Connected in the mind today and forever,
Loving the other completely
And ceasing to love never.
A soulmate that is.
A mile or thousands of miles
May separate with distance
Longer than is the Nile
But no matter how far your soulmate is,
You are close and together in the heart;
In tune and close are the spirits,
"Til death do us part."
A soulmate that is.

Have I done enough for myself?

I always ask this question everyday. Is it enough. Have I done enough?
Is my solah accepted by Allah. Is my takwa enough?

Oh Lord, please grant your mercy on me. I know I cannot stand hell fire.
Please let me answer the questions of Mungkar and Nangkir correctly.
Let my grave be wide, let me sleep like I am lying my mother's lap.
Let the feel of heaven be at my head and let my sleep be the shortest sleep
before we wake up for Judgement day at the field of Mashyar.

Let my scales be heavy on the right side and allow me my lord to accept
my book with my right hand. Let me smell the smell of heaven, grant me
my Lord the Prophet SAW's syafaat and allow me to drink from his well.
Let me cross the thin line swiftly and do not allow me to fall into the pit of hell.

Let me meet my father at the gate of Heaven with my maiden mother. Let us
be united together at last. Allow him oh the Lord of the Worlds, the opportunity
to see Dayyan and Sarah. Let him smile the best of smile, my Lord.

Oh my Lord, grant me strength to continue this live. Allow me to complete the
Jihad, at least before You summon me. We need to the best of Ummah, we haven't
be the Ummah. How will the Prophet SAW feels if he knows that his Ummah is so daif.
Oh Lord, please remove the corruptions from our hearts. Show us again and again the path
of truth and righteousness.

I pray that our Ummah is united, not to be split....help me my Lord.

For my soul mate.

It has been a wonderful 4 years with you. I couldn't imagine
how time flies. You have presented with Dayyan and Sarah.
I was there when you struggled between life and death for
Sarah to be born to this world. Words cannot describe
my love for you for being so brave. I was so afraid of losing
you my soul mate.

Next year, we will walk the aisle of the world again.
Hopefully we can go back to the place where we left our hearts behind.
We need to bring it back. Back to that place we were supposed to visit.
But this time, we will bringing the extension of our love, our two beautiful
children. One will be doing the talking while another will be doing the singing!

Is that wonderful for the both of us?....